2014.03.03: 24 - Finding Happiness

我与癌 (24-乐在其中) 在洛杉矶，离好莱坞又是近在咫尺，没有点艺术修养,有时朋友和我交谈如同对牛弹琴，一窍不通。从小到大我虽然喜欢蹦蹦跳跳，胆大包天，可我五音不全，而且图画课总是得良。汗颜！ 西洛杉矶抗癌协会正好开课，还特别强调，欢迎无绘画经验者参加。唾手可得的机会就在眼前。顾虑是怕自己体力吃不消，可转念一想，有生之年还是应该给予自己一点艺术的尝试，画画。尤其在美国，最赞赏的是个性，对我这种基本没有基础艺术教育的学生特别适合。我去了，有点忐忑不安。连续6个周六，每次两小时，我那个期盼呀，忘记累了，忘记饿了，忘我了呀，只怨时间走得太快。不试不知道，这一试验，我庆幸又找到一条康庄大道，精彩纷呈在前方。   感谢LG的学生们，帮我圆了一个梦。深知有生之年入伍是白日做梦，想入非非，但穿一穿军装，摆一摆姿式，留下点军姿，山寨一回，自我陶醉也 不错呀。LG竟然一语惊人，说我有点＜幸福象花儿一样＞里的孙俪的影子，我反驳说是她象我才对，我和她母亲差不多同辈吧。不管像谁，我就是我，像模像样的小解放军。 我在家这么些年，服装首先考虑舒服，然后才是时尚。这军装一穿上，走路得挺胸收腹，站立时不可东倒西歪，就这几张照，已把我累够呛，心想，天天要把军装穿出军姿，还真不是那么容易的一件事。特别感激LG的全力以赴，高效率帮助我完成任务，同时他还趁机在我们的院子踏了踏青，留下了花儿的倩影。（LG是劳模，平时逛院子是没有时间的） 最近中国微信泛滥，已波及不少在美华人，其中也包括我。感谢我的同学们组建的大中小学群，当群魔乱舞时，我恨不得有九头六臂来应对所有问题。特别感谢我的小学闺密XF和那时的绯闻男友X踏破铁皮终于找到我，并将我拉入群，也让所有同学终于有了一吐为快，报仇雪恨的机会。我惊叹我还曾被封为圣女，太抬举我了吧！ 小学群的对话常常勾起许多特别美好的回忆，那些画面栩栩如生，如同发生在昨日。怀念那时的纯洁无暇，互帮互助，简单明快的生活。大家目前的生活是我们在成长过程中所没有料到的，至少我没料到，自然是好吃好喝，加好玩。但愿都能以身体为重，不玩物丧志！ 至于我的血压，虽然调整了药，还是有点偏高170/100，但已不影响我的日常生活，还要继续调整。临床试验仍然在等待中！

Me and Cancer (24 - Finding Happiness) Living in Los Angeles, very close to Hollywood, I never had any artistic training. Friends and I occasionally act as if we were howling at the moon, knowing nothing of music. All my life I have liked to play and be daring, but I am tone deaf, and while I wanted to, I never could take drawing classes. What a shame! The West Los Angeles Cancer Society just started an art class and especially encouraged students with no experience to attend. The opportunity was right in front of my fingertips. I was worried I was not strong enough, but then I realized, even students of my age should still be able to learn about art and painting. Especially in the United States, a place that admires character, this type of class suited me particularly well. I went, and was a little uneasy at first. For six Saturdays, two hours each week, I had something to look forward to; I forgot my weariness, I forgot my hunger, I even forgot myself. I only wish the time had not gone by so fast. If you do not try something, you cannot know what it is, and over the course of this experiment I was happy and found a new road, bright and brilliant in front of me. Thanks to LG's students, I was able to fulfill a dream. I know well that being aware you are living the last years of your life is like living a daydream, and you can let your imagination run wild, but I still have responsibilities and am trying to make myself happy. LG has always managed to surprise me with a word, he has said I am like the character Sun Li from "Happiness is like a Flower" , but I disagree saying she is like me, our mothers are from the same age. No matter who is like whom, I am myself, living my own life. During my time at home these last few years, when choosing clothes, I first consider comfort and then consider style. As soon as I put on a uniform, I walk with my back straight and stomach in, and never lean when I stand. Just taking a few pictures makes me tired, and I think that wearing these uniforms everyday is not an easy thing. I am especially grateful for all the effort LG puts in, efficiently helping me to complete tasks, and still takes the opportunity to walk in the grass and leaves flowers for me. (LG is a model worker, and usually has no time to walk in the yard.)   Recently, China's microblogging has entered America's Chinese population, and I have also started to use it.  I want to thank my classmates for organizing classes of all sizes, and when I am running wild in class I cannot help but do everything I can to deal with problems. I especially want to thank XF and her boyfriend X for bringing me to the class, and for helping everyone enjoy the class more. Their help was too flattering to me! My small class conversations usually evoked particularly beautiful memories, and helped bring those memories to life as if they happened yesterday. I miss that time of innocence and cooperation when life was simple and clean. Our current life is in the middle of something we did not expect, or at least that I did not expect, but life is good and we are happy. But honestly my body and health are the most important and I do not want small victories to get in the way of my long term progress! As for my blood pressure, I am still adjusting to the drug and it is just above 170/100. But it is not affecting my daily life, and I am making minor adjustments. I am still waiting to hear about clinical trials!